Your first, fills you
With pride and joy
No matter girl or boy
When you reach three or four
Its run of the mill
After a few years
The first, you strut
With pride and joy
Better still you
Get all the good bits
Your kids cope with the stress
When you get to
Seven or eight
They’re still special
More matter of fact though
Now I’m waiting
On my first
Talk about special
Been telling the world
I’m not old enough
Only fifty six
Still a youngster
Can’t wait till January
My first grandkid
Having a kid
I’m proud as punch
The cycle starts
I’m bursting with pride
Can’t wait for a cuddle
From great grandkid
After a long drive back from London with lots of time to think.
I remembered something I decided last year.
I’ve spent a lot of time visiting mental health professional’s. During those visits I spent a lot of time looking at the negative things in life. After one long session when I was very low and almost suicidal. When I realised that all those negative thoughts and going over them helped no one. Definitely not me.
Our pasts always effect the way we react to the present. One of the things I do is run and hide when any death effects someone I care for happens.
Not that that excuses any negative thing I’ve done.
Anyway back to the point.
What I decided was to look at the positive folk I’ve had in my life. That brought back loads of positive feelings. Making me realise that even when we lose a friend no matter who’s fault it is once the tears are over. When you remember that friendship don’t focus on the end, on the negative issues. Try remembering the positives that happened.
For me I lost a truly special friend recently and that caused pain and tears. Then I realised that person had changed me so much for the positive. By showing me how my actions hurt others. I’m sad the friendship is over and will never be back. However thanks to that awesome person I will no longer hurt anyone in the same way.
So rather than focusing on those negative things. I want to say thank you for the life lessons. Thanks for a great friendship.
Perhaps if we all did the same we would have a happier world.
So next time you have issues with someone in your life don’t focus on those negatives for to long. Just try and remember the positive things that relationship gave you both.
Today I attended my third funeral in as many weeks. Then I have two next week. Think I’m getting old.
Today was so stressful it was the first time in four years I had been in the same room as my step mum. I was ashamed of her. She didn’t even stand as the coffin came into the crematorium. Showing how little respect she has for herself more than anyone else. She could however manage to stand as we left and monopolised every person there as they left. Talk about a narcissistic personality. She couldn’t even pay her respects to a lovely woman without making it about her.
I know it sounds silly but I was so scared today unsure what to expect. It ended ok. No upset for a grieving family to cope with outside the obvious
I hope I never have to be in her company again.
Things keep getting worse. Now my lovely dog Katie is so unwell. She is being sick every where , she can hardly stand up , her back legs are barely holding her up.
I know she’s 15 year old and getting old but its breaking my heart seeing her like this. She can’t even take her medication.
Vets first thing and lots of chanting and prayers tonight.
In the last 2 months I’ve been to two funerals. Now a friend is in hospital with terminal cancer and has only days to live. After a long struggle she is losing that fight. Then today I got a phone call to tell me a dear family friend has passed away.
Is this what getting older means?
Today I went to my craft group. What a setting to have it held. Near the Wallace monument and with a great view over to Stirling castle.
Absolutely stunning view so relaxing to.
Here is a pic of the polymer clay pendant I made for my grand daughter.
What do you think? She loves steampunk. Just hope she likes it.
This magnolia was given to me, by my best friend, to plant in memory of my Uncle Alex. He was an amazing man who I strive to emulate.